Short lift(:

Deny is the best way to escape, at the same time, it also closes your door and trap yourself inside. It works now but as time passes, nothing can cover fire until you extinguish it with water(truth).

New Key: Family Forever?

   It didn't cross my mind when I was on my walk back home from a tiring day at school. All I cared was I was going back home happily and boy am I starving! I couldn't think of anything to upset this whole plan, Go Home, Bathe, Eat and Study. It sounded so perfect and I was so sure that I will have the discipline to do it!

   Yet again it didn't cross my mind that some things are bound to go wrong since, well, you never know what’s installed for you. All I can do is pray that whatever comes, it is not too overwhelming.

    I did the same. Cheerfully greeted everyone before stepping into the house, however, this time, I greeted four times before I had a reply. It wasn't a reply I wanted to hear. Instantly, my mind was plunged into a state of confuse. What happened?

     I will be lying if I said I had no idea. I knew quite well actually. But I just fake it. I rather not knowing than suffer in the silence meant for those who knows. It was down right freaky. For a 15 year old, it is like hell. I mean really. The house was eerie and deafening! Ironic. It was pounding with silence.

     I never thought of this ever happening. I always viewed my family as the happiest family in the block and even among my friends. Seeing my dad just silently, too silently fixing the new TV at the corner, my mom all quiet, I caught a glimpse of my mom's red puffy eyes. My dog was happy, too happy to see me. My grandma looked just different. It all adds up. Explanations, answers and questions flooded my head. I was tired, hungry and confused. Oh MAN! WHAT IN THE WORLD HAPPENED? But some part of me didn't what to know, because what had happened isn't something my young mind can comprehend.

     It felt lonelier than ever. I really hated that feeling. I know this shouldn't be the case, but I am actually angry. Angry because I thought all along my family was better than this! I am angry because my friends envied my family. Angry because it is just absurd! Angry because I am very affected about how distant everything felt. Up to the point of lost. Will things stay the same? Can we still be that ideal family forever?

     I don't know many things about life but not everything about life I will enjoy. Unlike what it was for the last few years I lived. Things are not that simple anymore. It is not that things mysteriously get complicated. It is that the more you grow, the more things in life can no longer hide from you, thus revealing its ugly side that you have never seen. But well....Man this is life!